sometimes, not so strong
I start with spelling and grammar errors that you my find....I just write my AS life, don't judge! It's hard to live strong and positive with a disease that SCREAMS weak and negative. I do sometimes think, I just wish you'd at least try and understand...but then, I quickly think, NO...you'd have to feel what I feel. I don't want anyone to feel this way. It's hard to not cry and scream, WHY? Why, this? Give me something else. Take my voice, my eyes, my legs...TAKE THIS! I DON'T WANT THIS! Interesting to read in my devotional this AM, that Jesus even asked God, do I have too? I don't know why I have "this", but I know that I don't have to go it alone. Even though it feels like the loneliest "thing" to go through. I guess that's why we sometimes think, if only you'd try and understand. Emotional start to what was an emotional day filled with 2 disappointing doctors visits and tears. Yup, tears. Rheumy is tryi...